A text for him

I texted him last night. It was a very long message. The message that I wrote was what i refered to the book of " Men are from Mars. Women are from Venus".

Dear,

I am angry that you ignored me. I am angry that you don't want to spend time with me and always busy. I am angry that we don't spend time together and there is always something more important than me. I want to feel you love me. I am sad that you don't want to be with me. I feel like you wouldn't know if I wasn't there. I am sad that you always busy and don't want to talk to me. I feel hurt that you do not care for me anymore. I don't feel special. I am afraid that you don't even know why I am upset. I afraid of sharing my feelings with you cause I am afraid that you don't care and will reject me.I am afraid that we drifting apart and I am a burden for you. I am afraid that I am too boring for you and I am afraid that I can't do anything about it.I am afraid that you don't like me. I feel so embarrassed wanting to spend time with you when you don't even care.I am sorry that I sounds demanding.I am sorry that I am not loving and accepting.I am sorry that I was cold when you don't want to spend time with me. And I am sorry that I stop trusting your love.I do love you. I wanted to do something to please you.I want to spend some special time together. I still want to have a special day with you just like we had last time. I forgive you being so indifferent to me.I forgive you that not responding right now.I don't know how long I still can holding on. But this moment right now, I do really need you. I love you and miss you but you will never know.


And this was his reply :

I know and I can feel it. I don't know how to show my love to you...


Conclusion :

I feel hurt , sad and confused. I don't know what he actually trying to say here. I don't know.