A Broken Day

13/3/09, Friday

A day that totally tear my heart into few pieces. A day that also made me more tougher for not looking backward and please for him anymore.I can forgive him for making me sad but not fooling me around. We dated for an outing after work. I texted him before I went out from my house. When I almost reach his shop, I did texted him again. He just replied and asaid he is at PJ now. So after 40 mins, about745pm, I texted and called him but he never reply nor return call.After bout 25 mins, I called him again. He just spoke a sentence of words when he picked up the call " Can you please dont keep making me sick" and cut off my call. I gave myself 10 mins to calmed down in the car. Within this 10 mins , I hope for a lot of thing. But it never come true. So I made up my mind of not waiting for him, that time was about 825pm. I drove and cried. I don't care whether others will see it or not. I was totally destroyed.

10pm, he texted me .

J : where are you now?

K: on the way back home.

J: k

I had turned off my phone after this conversation.

15/3/09,

I tot I would received his apologize or some good nite text after the incident. I think I was totally too wrong and think too much. After I home from Johor, I checked my 016phone. It was nothing not even a message...I think I should know why already.

Love is fade, he is fake. Left me alone with the broken heart. I guess he has a new partner. Someone that he felt more suitable. I am only a burden for him. He choose to leave. I have no point to stop him. Cause he don't appreciate my love anymore.

I really hope I m die my heart for him. I hope I won't change my mind.

But I scared I will contact him. I scared that I lose him and lose for my pride.